when i did the first demo of andreja i had been drinking lots of coffee and i listened to it and just buried my head in my hands and was just like man what the fuck am i doing?
like i felt like it was different enough from anything that i had done before that there was pretty much no guarantee that anyone who liked the things i had been doing would like it. like once the germ of the idea had taken root in my brain i had to follow it to it’s natural conclusion because i mean that’s the way the work is for me, once i have some kind of gut level understanding of what the outline of a work is i just like follow my feelings and start filling in the blank spots until the picture is complete. so it’s not really until it’s done that i have time to stand back and try to think about what the ramifications of the thing i just did are.
so i mean one thing is that when i did andreja i sort of realized that i was on a different path than i had been before and even though it was scary to realize that i had done and probably would continue to do things that might alienate people who liked the things i had done previously i had to follow my heart because that’s the only way i can do anything
but another thing about it is that since then, i have done stuff that make feel about andreja the way that andreja made me feel about the ruin stuff. like, if you like andreja and you can deal with the different sound and the vocals being more upfront and me trying to write more memorable memories and lyrics about a broader set of emotions then i mean you very well might like the new record but i mean i keep totally confounding and destroying my own expectations for what it’s going to be so can’t imagine the fate that will befall other peoples’ expectations when it is finally done and out in the world